Nearly half a year ago I wrote a letter to myself to open on my birthday. Funny thing, I didn't remember writing this letter at all, so it was just as much of a surprise to me as was the reminder I set on my phone. The weirdest part of it all was that it really felt like another person wrote it. So much has changed during these months... Turning 18, I didn't really feel like that age. I still felt very much 17. After preparing and sending my portfolio to Calarts, realizing I'm finishing school this year and becoming an adult, I finally kinda accepted I was 18. And boom, 19 now. If I were typing this journal on my birthday, I'd have said I still didn't feel like 19. Now I'm so tired I just don't know.
Ya know, the person who wrote me this letter seemed pretty cool actually. Had an amazing sense of humor, very much my type, and knew me all too well (tho I scanned those sketchbooks so 1:0, old me!). All in all, I wouldn't mind hanging out xD But yeah... she was much different. Kinda wish I could talk to the younger versions of myself but alas, I can only time travel one way.
Thank you for all the birthday wishes and gifts! You wonderful people made my day.
I got real sweet stuffs from my friends irl (namely pypr
; Lynx you
better study hard for those finals), as well as these beauties:
Thank youu :*
Also, check out these things I commissioned from pokrzyva
Look, just look! *w* Aweeeesooooome.
For those interested, no, I didn't get a reply from Calarts yet, gonna get it sometime this month. Actually, I'd rather get it later than sooner - the later I get it, the closer I was to actually getting accepted - at least that's how it goes with my logic. Like, first to get the answer are those with whom it's clear whether they should get a yes or no, at least that's what I think it looks like.
Since I very much don't expect to get accepted yet, I think I might share my plans for the upcoming year. I'm definitely not giving up on Calarts just yet, so: there's that one semester life drawing course at The Animation Workshop in Denmark I'm hoping to attend. It starts in August, ends in December - just in time to make the final touches to the portfolio. My finals I have in May, so there's a window for somewhat more intensive arting then. And 2015 I guess I'll start with nothing to do but art and wait, and if I don't get accepted then... well, I'll figure that one out later. For now, I got my finals, possible recrutation for TAW, not to mention I haven't received an answer yet.
Thanks for all your support on the way, it really keeps me going! I realize I haven't been arting as much these... 2 years, I guess. I'm feeling bad about it and I'll do my best to amend that. All in all, highschool was a bitch. Much tougher than I expected it to be, and I'm really glad it's going to be over soon. Whichever way it goes, I'm gonna have a few months of free time to spare, and I always carry a bucket full o' ideas with me. I guess some of them get too old, like the ones I'd planned in junior high, but trust me - lack of inspiration is never an issue with me. Motivation is another thing, and school did it's share of killing every ounce of it I ever had. Once again, glad it's gonna be over soon.